Tajuk tulus-mulus jd pengisian kali ni pun kena yg molek-molek :)
Since last month, life quite miserable. If you practice the correct english, you'll read my statement just now as - life sgt miserable. Not - life agak miserable. So here's the thing that make my life kucar-kacir. I was applying for car loan. Ye, sy bhajat membeli sebuah kereta. The car is supercute till I will tersipu-sipu sendiri bila nmpk kelibat kereta tu di jalanan. Motif tersipu?? Eh sukahati la titew nk tersipeuww.. Gwiyomi! *tetiba*
Sy pun applyla. To my surprise, my name was in ccris record! Ccris ni senang cerita rekod pembayaran buruk yg disimpan oleh Bank Negara Malaysia. Ha.. seriau tak dengar kisah cik gayah. Kalah seriaunya memikiorkan siapa menang PRU kali ni.
Siasat punya siasat, dptla tahu bahawa ccris tu was due to my credit card. I was having a credit card but all the transaction done was not solely done for my own purposes. Ada pihak lain yg turut menyumbang kepentingan dlm penggunaan kad kredit tu. Tak guna sy nk blame 'dia' sbb pasaipa dulu sy yg bg greenlight utk 'dia' guna? Kan... Thus I admit my mistake and take the responsibility utk clear the BAD debit. Almost 3k okeh. So everything dh clear and now i dont owe single cent with the credit card bank. Sy igt dh habis kt situla. Rupanya tidak!
Bila sy nk re-apply beli kereta, bank raise pulak hal bahawasanya, wpun dh xde hutang, tp rekod ccris tu pernah ada jd susah utk bank luluskn loan. Menangis cik gayah smpai migrain2 jadinya. Seminggu demam overdose memikior hal ni. Mana tak sedih. Next month cik gayah dh start keje shift. Takde kenderaan sndiri, susahla cik gayah nk gerak ke ofice. Susah hati sgt2. Mangsa melepas sengsara di hati siapa lg kalau bukan en.Ubi & housemate & sorg kawan office.
They were behaving so optimist tp sy tetap sedih. Sampaila lepas jumpa en.Ubi hari ni, berkat kesabaran en.Ubi agaknya, terdetik dlm hati sy utk REDHA. Sy ucap, "Ya Allah, aku redha dgn segala yg Engkau tentukan buatku. Aku yakin sepenuh hati bahawa Engkau menuntunkan setiap satu ujian dgn hikmah yg hanya Engkau Maha Mengetahui." Nangis cik gayah time solat. Dh lama x nangis masa solat :(
Sedih.. Sy byk terleka dr Allah, tu yg Allah turunkn ujian mcmni - ketidaksenangan hati, ketidakcukupan harta dunia walhal berlebih dr org lain. Astaghfirullahal'azim. Astaghfirullahal'azim.
Lepas redha, tenang sikit hati ni. Terima kasih Allah, for such soft and gentle reminder for me yg selalu terleka :( Terima kasih jg Allah, kerana mengurniakan org-org di sekeliling yg baik-baik buatku.
p/s: Sy cerita kt mama yg sy susah hati. Pastu mama as usual igtkn.. Tu la mama dh pesan byk kali. Ni mama pesan lg sekali. Amalkan Rabbi yassir wala tu'assir rabbi tammim bi khair.. To my surprise, esoknya ada kawan blogger post doa ni kt blog dia. What else i can say, Mum always a Mum! :D
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