Rindu

Hari ni masuk ofce balik. Yadaa. Yadaa. 2 hari kt branch best tp mcm lemau sikit rasanya. Xberapa nk proactive buat keje (pdhal sbb xleh fb dgn senanglenang. ceh!). Tabik dkt frontliners yg dok tadah muka, tadah telinga hari2 mhadap walk in customer. I believe ths is another reason mnguatkn ksyukuran sy pd Allah sbb kurniakn sy dgn kerja sy skrg ni. Ada je org lain yg susah payah cari kerja n i wanted to help them so bad xkisahla siapapun dorg. Tp tulah, sy bukan bos besaq blh bg keje kt org ssuka hati :(

Nk topup sedih ngengada ni sikit lg, exam is just around the corner but yet, sy mcm baru dftar sem! Brp mggu dh class sy still xterror apa2 psl komputer. Die. Die. Die. Napa xhebat mcm coursemate yg lain? Bg dorg computer tu dh mcm nasi kerabu agknya. Sedap je makan ngn budu (hyper-metaphor) Napa? Napa??? T__T  3 hari exam, scheduled on 15, 25, 30 March 2012. Im scared to death!! :(((

Ha. Cito pasa nasi kerabu, hari tu ambo gi make nasi kabu kt House of Nasi Kerabu (HONK).
translate: Ha. Cerita pasal nasi kerabu, hari tu sy gi makan nasi kerabu kt House of Nasi Kerabu (HONK).
Dkt je dgn my house. Plus, ni kedai my fren. Jomjom gi kedai beliau!

gambar parents owner :)

Last but not least.. rindu kt coursemate tau. Wpun jumpa dorg like every weekends, tp tetap rindu juga. Dorg ni mcm people in my other world. Tp ni dgr cerita ada yg nk extend due to some reasons.. Sedih plop.

Till I'm blogging again, smile! :)

Oh Rubiah!

Bila seorang lelaki menegur kamu, seorang perempuan, ttg pemakaian dan tingkah laku kamu, agar kamu menjadi muslimah yg lebih Dia redhai, apa reaksi kamu?

Till I'm blogging again, smile! :)

Bawa aku pergi

#mood mmg tgh tukar2 mcm lampu kelipkelip. ampun.

bawa aku pergi
pacu laju-laju
kita lari dari realiti
bawa aku pergi
pacu laju lagi
malah kita
tak perlu kembali

tengah malam nanti
tolong jangan lupa
jangan mungkir janji
aku dah teruja
sudah cukup lama
aku tunggu saat ini
sejak kali terakhir kau hantar pulang
hidup sungguh sepi

tolong, jangan bilang mama
tolong, jangan bilang papa
malah jangan bilang teman karibmu
jangan bilang sesiapa

buku merah jangan lupa bawa
moga-moga belum tamat tempoh
kali ini kita pergi lebih lama
pergi lebih jauh, ayuh

bila kita pergi

apa kan berlaku

siapa kan peduli

siapa ambil tahu

hidup kita tempuh

untuk apa saja

tidak kira mana kembara membawa

kita kan bersama

Till I'm blogging again, smile! :)

Demi masa, aku hilang

O Allah, the owner of ocean and earth,
The owner of my heart and others,
I am in need of your love and mercy as i feel so lost right now..

I'm happy but I'm suffer,
I'm free but I'm stuck,
I'm alive but I'm not exist,
What do i do O dear Allah..

It says,

Sihat sebelum sakit

Muda sebelum tua

Kaya sebelum miskin

Lapang sebelum sempit

Hidup sebelum mati

Every above seems attacking me now,
I live healthily but my heart is in pain,
I live younger than anyone age me but why it is too late for us to meet each other,
I have so much love to give but I'm too afraid to admit,
I wish for everyone cares but I just cant be torn apart,
I smile and laugh a lot but it always empty inside.


O Allah, the owner of ocean and earth,
The owner of my heart and others,
I'm begging for Your guidance, again..

I'l do anything to be on the track that makes me close to you,
To feel Your love as all I need in this life, is Your love, Allah
And if their loves distract me from You,
Then it will be my pleasure leaving them with no regrets.


It just a matter of time when every mess will be cleared up. I believe in Your fate. I'l always do..

a song to remember

#neila

2.2.2012, 12:46am

Assalamu'alaikum (ecehh. serious bebenor bunyinya).  Takde la serious mana, beri salam ikhlas, penuh, teratur, kn tu ibadah. Btw, im thinking of writing somethg serious ths time around. I've reviewed myblog and seems too many hanky-panky posts recently. I missed the genuine me who struggle to be a better muslimah. O Allah, pls keep me with iman to You in every tracks i walk through.

Something happened to me recently. To be precised, yesterday. In all hectic before, this is the thing that i've waited sooo long and i suppose feel like sharing with everybody with laughter and smiles. Apparently, it wasnt occur that way.

I finally being proposed by someone. Someone who come into my life speedily greater than a flash! I thought im gonna jump high when someone sincerely ask me to be his life's partner. No. Conversely, I was cry, cry, and cry and cry and sobbing like a lost child.

It was late night and i just finished solat Isya', when he texted me so. How ironic and sentimental it was, sbb sy masih bteleku atas sejadah, dalam telekung, dan mbaca hasrat dia tu makes me shaking to death. Out of blue sy menangis mcm mata xlagi bkelopak. Lps 5-10 minit cmtu, sy cepat2 istighfar dan bangun. I tried to calm myself and so sy solat lg tp sy sbnrnya xtahu dan xsedar solat apa yg sy niatkn masa tu. Solat syukur? Solat sunat? Solat hajat? I just cant clearly remember! All i know is, dlm stiap ayat sy baca, sy mgigil, sy mnangis, sy lemah sgt2.. I feel like begging to Allah, to hug me tight and calm me..

..and why i cried?
Bcause deep down inside me, i know that he's too good for me and im way too far to suit him best for the rest of his life. Sy smpi cakap pd dia, ntah apa dosa yg dia dh buat smpi tuhan 'berikn' sy yg jahil ni utk dia.. Atau mgkin tuhan tlalu sayangkn dia, hgga dia dpt dugaan bgini; dberikn sy yg jahil. There were soo many things and acts that i've regret in my life. I just dont wnt to be mean to him, to let him regret, be with me, be my husband. And so i hold myanswer to his proposal.

Sy belum lg mnta maaf pd dia sbb gantung semua ni tnpa jwpn. Sy serah bulat2 pd Allah. Klu sy mmg utk dia, skalipun xde jwpn kluar dr mulut sy, sy tetap akn jd pneman hidup dia.

# And for you, the one who stabbed my heart with yr proposal, all i want to say is that;

Semoga Allah mmuliakan awak.. sbagaimana awk mmuliakan sy dgn lamaran awak...

Till I'm blogging again......