See, lg kome sakit lg banyak keje kome. Haha. Kidding! Mine banyak kes tp yg mudah2 je because they kesian at me kang tak pasal2 mata pejam tangan menaip kaki ketaq2 :p
Kekdahnya saya tak start buat keje lg sbb dlm counting nama saya ada tp dlm list of assignment nama guwe nggak ado. So guwe lek2 lu kt sini.
Ehhemmm. Tajuk gempak bukan? Why i chose to talk about it is because smlm golek2 smpai pukul 3pagi takleh tidur. Panehhhhh. Asyik gogok ayaq tapi still rasa badan mcm dehidrate. Dh tak boleh tidur, handphone lah peneman kan. Buka la youtube. Mula2 buka gakla surah yassin segala tp lps tu buka lagu2. Hikhik. Saja nk tgk mv lagu2 yg selalu dok dgr dlm kete time pi balik keja. Salah satunya, lagu Sleeq - Tepi Sikit. Here I share:
You guys know what made me surprised?? Ada someone i knew long long time ago dlm mv tu. And that someone pernah ler fe-feeling fall in love for me. (ofcourse bukan yg jadi pengemis tu :p) Masa tu zaman saya praktikal. Muda remaja bergetah cik gayah time tu. Oh and as you guys may guess, beliau ialah suami org. Saya melayan? You see, sometimes we thought of sincere to be friend with them and - eh saya anggap dia sbg kawan je - but who knows if dlm diam, lama-kelamaan dia simpan perasaan lain kt kita. Sampai la mmg sah2 he admit to me that he do have feelings towards me. Dia bawa anak dia pi office & kenalkn to me & his daughter call me mommmy ke bonda ntah tak igt. Tetiba je anak dia sooo close to me. Sikit2 nk me to be with her. Ahh sudahhhhh... More to that, dia akan teman saya balik rumah, really2 take a good care of me (more than my partner did to me)(at that time i wasnt met en.Ubi yet). Masa tu buat la gaya mana pun, even if i say i hate him, he wont mengalah one. Dia akan tetappp pd 'chenta mati' dia pd guwe.
What i was thinking by tht time? Nothing. Sbb i knew that i already have a partner plus dia dh ada family!! No. No. BIGGGGG NO. Saya mmg orgnya jenis yg xmahu jd org ketiga. Pujuk rayulah camane pun. I wont be with you. Ni bkn ckp besar, but inshaaAllah, saya byk2 bdoa kt Allah to avoid me in tht kind of love.
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| dinda. auww! tanya sgt cik gayah nk apa, minta volkswagen kang baru tahu |
Bukan mudah nk just say no to org yg ada perasaan kt kita. Sbb bab hati ni bukan blh dipaksa2. Kita nk menolak, usahalah cara baik, perlahan-lahan, sikit2. Masa yg akan heal them. They may assume kita kejam. Let them be. Jgn korang bomohkan dia pulak. Mengarut semua tu! Instead, kita banyak2 doa yg dia akan lupakan perasaan yg bukan milik dia. If it's really meant to be that we shouldnt be together, dia akan slowly lupakan kita. Paling kuat pun ingat sekali lalu gitu je. Kalau dia ckp dia igt juga lg, tgk tiang gol pun nampak mcm muka kita (amboihh), sedekah fatihah kt dia. Biar roh dia tenang dari mengingati kita. Kita baik, tak mcm pasangan dia sbb tu dia x boleh lepaskn kita? Ye mungkin kita lebih baik sikiiiit dr psgn dia, dia rasa lbh bahagia dgn kita tp igt, aturan Allah tu lbh bermakna. Mungkin kebaikan yg kita ada adalah utk dikongsi bersama org lain.
Pakkal cik gayah bukan retis. Kalau cik gayah ni retis, sama naik gosipnya dgn Hxxxx Sxxxxxx. For me, ini semua pengalaman. If kt zaman uni, mungkin ada scandal dgn lecturer yg dh berkeluarga. If kt office, dgn officemate yg dh berkeluarga. Sesiapa sj boleh terdedah dgn benda2 mcmni kalau dilayankan perasaan di awang-awangan tu. Pls handle it wisely. I said so sbb tak boleh juga nk dinafikan jika mmg dh Allah dh nyatakan jodoh kamu dgn org yg telah berkeluarga. Hmmm..
En.Ubi tak pernah tahu semua msg2 ni. Unless he read it here. I know he'll be a bit marah & tak suka & jeles :) But all i can say is that, inshaaAllah, i wont be org ketiga utk mana-mana psngan pun. Tu my prinsip in love. More to that, kalau relation saya yg dilanda mslh org ketiga, i will sacrifice myself. Saya rela undur diri. Trust me, i've experienced it before :')
Mmg hati jiwa lara blh melayang2 bila ada org nk sgt kt kita. Tp tulah, tak ke mana menyimpan rindu dendam dgn suami org ni. Nnt suami awak rindu dendam kt org lain acaner?? Tak menggagau time tu?
En.Ubi masa nk tackle cik gayah dulu pun agak ambil masa sbb cik gayah ingat dia dh ada partner masa tu. Almost say no to en.Ubi. Nasib baik dia keeeeeeeeeeep on berusaha membuktikan yg dia single & available for me. Hikhik.
Dah. Dah. Life move!
Intan payung, i heart you. Thank you for being single & available for me :)
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