Pengalaman Mengandung (selepas keguguran)

Ok honeybun, let's us do this together!

Did I mentioned honeybun?? Uuuu yess :) En.Ubi is not my honeybun oh please *insert emoticon mata meleret pandang ke tepi*. En.Ubi itu adalah bapaknya si tecit honeybun. Maybe I'll call en.Ubi, roti-benggali later. Gahahhah.

So. I am pregnant (again) guys! :)

And this is again an unplanned pregnancy. I was the one yg rasa belum ready nk pregnant again. Mungkin sbb takut kehilangan lagi sekali. I miscarriaged Baby I April this year and in November we detected another honeybun is already swimming in my belly :) To share the truth, I didnt know that I was already carrying this another honeybun while we were in Bromo! Yerppp! It such a nightmare if I already knew it. And eventhough I only knew it a day after we touched down Malaysia, the regret-ness in me, the feel of being an irresponsible mom, oh my.. sangat sangat SANGAT diselubungi rasa bersalah okeyhhh :( The next thing came in my mind was - will the baby stay still inside my tummy way untill the fullterm or will the baby came out way too early like his/her abg/kakak before..? :((((((

The worriness.. oh only Allah knows :( I even minta ampun to en.Ubi awal2 tu because I was just too afraid I'll be loosing this sweety like I lost Baby I before :(

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Days changed. Months stepped away. I am Alhamdulillah has passed the scariest first trimester. Oh I must say that that were my scariest 3months.

I eats very carefully. I walks very carefully. I sleeps over carefully too! Haha. Bet en.Ubi geleng kepala sees me lps mkn je mengantuk. While asal terjaga je lapar :p  I didnt put weight so much though sbb saya makan dlm kuantiti yg sikit cumanya kerap. Kerap tu like every 2hours dh gelisah mencari makanan.

Opps dah mcm carcamarba plak cerita tak tahu hujung pangkal kan. Hm, for this entry, let me share detik-detik dapat tahu ttg this pregnancy and what were happened within the first trimester.

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Sblm fly ke Bromo, saya dh hint en.Ubi that I might have my menstrual there. In short, hrp beliau bertabahlah kalau saya emo ke apa masa kt sana kn :p After a few days at Bromo, I didnt have my mens. Yet, it still didnt ring a bell to me sbb saya rasa, mungkin saya too exhausted sampai hormon berubah a bit. Cramp2 perut like tnda2 biasa nk period, dtg sekali sekala. So I was cool je. Entah mcm mana on the last day at Surabaya, either en.Ubi ke saya ntah yg tergerak hati nk beli UPT kit. Beli yg stripe je. Sampai Malaysia midnight. So first thing in the next morning, saya bgn buat test tu. En.Ubi masih lg tidur kepenatan. Masa shishi tu, I told myself not too berharap. Tapi, sekejap je dah nampak the result!

Teruja!

Jujurnya, saya agak terkejut. Mcm eh, is this for real? Should I be happy now? Or should I be so-so je? Walk into our bedroom with the UPT in hand, there I sees en.Ubi tgh nyenyak dibuai mimpi. Tetiba terasa beliau sgt comel ketika tidur. Kekekkekke. Thank you to the pregnancy hormone :p Woke him up softly, I stared at him. En.Ubi terkial-kial nak memahamkan the look I gave. He must be thinking, ape ke hey yong tenung teman gini pagi2 gini..? Saya terus tunjuk the UPT stick. En.Ubi tengok, beliau tak faham gamaknya, so he asks me instead,  

Ada ke?

I nodded and asks him to hug me sbb mmg nak rasa 'ditenangkan' waktu tu.
He hugs me and say Tahniah...
Wakakkakkakakak. What derrrrr! Ekau ingat den boleh mengandung sorang-sorang tanpa ekau ko jang? Ekau sodar tak ekau yg mengandungkan den ni ha?? Ekekkekekkekkkek.

Tahniah pun tahniah lah yang oii. Lapar ni, jom pi makan. Sebelum pi makan, en.Ubi tanya bila saya nak test guna clear blue stick pulak. Clear Blue tu dah lama beli cumanya tak pernah guna. So dgn mengadanya saya pun pi la test.

Tarraaaaaaaaaaaaa..!!

Saya baca dekat box clear blue tu, kalau it shows 1+, maknanya dah 2-3minggu pregnant. Kalau 2+, maknanya dah 3-4minggu pregnant. Kalau 3+, maknanya dah pregnant 5minggu ke atas. So our honeybun by that time dah 5weeks mcmtu. Terus mcm buat kira-kira ni bila punya production yang oii? Kekekkkekek.

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Ha, camtu la detik-detiknya saya tahu yg saya mengandung. Symptom pra-mengadung takdak sangat or maybe sbb saya yg tak 'fokus' pd symptom yg badan saya rasa. But seriously this time around takdak symptom kerap shishi like pregnantkan Baby I before, takdak symptom sakit pinggang mcm nak patah, takdak apa.

Next entry rasa nya lebih banyak share on my pregnancy journey. Cerita Bromo?? Ya hampuuuunnn, besar kemungkinan dah terberanak nanti baru ada sambungannya >_<