quicky

Besar sgt hajat di hati nk record 1 per 1 kisah sakit saya. To belum bkesempatan. If sy dh sihat, insyaAllah will be writing kisah tragis dr hri prtama. Seb3lum tu, nk pnjatkan ksyukuran pd rakan tawa dan tangis.. kakyong nawar, siti nurul aziah, kak rizatul izma, rashidah idris, kak niza. Pd mereka ni lah tempat sy hamburkn segala tangis saya saat2 saya give up dgn sakit ni. And of course, pinjaman tuhan yg paling2 sy cinta, en.Ubi..yg x jemu2 melayan rengekan sy wlupun dia kna menahan mngantuknya mata sbb penat bekerja.

silent period

Assalamu'alaikum! Mcm biasa, im blogging via tab so hadap jelah if xde prenggan nahu terabur segala k... Mggu ni en.ubi mai rumah myparents kt johor.superhappy sbb not seeing him for quite some time. Nmpk je kelibat beliau msuk rmh td, mcm jtuh cnta pndg oertama yawwls! Oh, maybe ada yg xtau knp sy lma x update blog. Nnt sy cite k ;) its the same reason knp sy lama x jumpa en.ubi. Miss en.ubi wpun dia depan mata laa ni :)

penat

Sy perasan bila sy x makan dgn kuantiti yg sepatutnya dr pagi smpi ke petang, sy akn start pening and body temperature naik. Kalau jumpa doktor by that time sure dpt mc wpun larat je cntinue keje. What im trying to share is, bila xmkn seharian je sy akan demam. Ahahah. Ape ke sadis sgt jenis penyakit. Asal xmkn je demam. Cett. The other thing sy perasan ttg my biological reaction is that, bila sy stress melampau, sy akan muntah. Kt office dh 2-3kali kena cmni. Close friends pun notice hal ni. Kdg2 bila too think of works, personal matters, family dlm 1 tempoh yg sama, stress level tu akn smpi ke tahap un-control. Tu yg sy muntah kot? So bila org ckp, "xlaratla buat bnda ni. Nk naik muntah dah!" Dulu sy igt ckp2 metagora je. Rupanya jd kt diri sendiri. Huuu.. so normally if sy rasa bdn sy dh start lain mcm je, sy akn move away dr current place sy skejap. Gi la toilet ke pantry ke just for the sake of not cntinue thinkimg of the problem or hal tu. If else, cnfirm muntah. Ni semua faktor usia ke ek?? Esok2 kalau dh ada 2-3 anak, pantang stress sikit muntah. En.ubi sure confuse, ni stress ke or ada baby baru? Wakakakakkk..... Bai! Nk masak megi ;)

the sad me..

I hve lots to tell but snce xdak laptop (laptop office sila dok diam2 kt office or else im going to eat sleep pray shishi with work!). Err ktne td? O ha. But since xde laptop so malas nk berblog. Sbb template draft lari semua when im blogging via tab. Sad :( Topup my sadness sbb both of us (me & en.ubi) stucked with workloads. And this has earlier jd kerisauan our parents. Dulu my future makmen siap bincang2 dgn my mom about my work. By tht time sy mcm rilex2 lg. Laa ni bila en.ubi dh tukar kje n mula busy dgn kje dia, sy pula risau. How are we going to hve a healthy fmly later on?? This work-thingy I honestly feels like getting more of my attention than my preparation for the day. Sad :( there are times penat sgt dgn keje sampai bminggu2 sy lupa lgsung pasal preparation. Supersad :( And esok, sy kna keje. Sy ada project iraq yg belum siap. Sy taktipu. Tu mmg project iraq. See, org lain smbut hri malaysia, sy stanby nk 'bperang' di iraq.. bye :(

my very first love

Koranggggggg...!!! Nk tau tak! Saya jumpa balik so called ex-boyfriend saya masa zaman cinta monyet dulu! Hahah dono why im so getting hype rite now :p oh btw, bkn jumpa face to face pun. Jumpa dlm fb. Kalau jumpa bdepan, sure saya xkenal dia dh. Sbnrnya x igt dh pun muka dia mcm mna tp bila tgk gambar, old-sweet memories come la kan.. more to that, saya dh download dh pun gambar dia. Hahahahh!! (Im seriously hype in this. Weeee) mesti korang wonder dia single lg ke tak? Hensem ke tak? Goshh I wonder too! ;) To be honest, sy tertanya2, dia jadi orang ke tak? Mcm takut dia 'tak ok'. Korang nk tgk tak gambar dia?? Here he is :)

Dh berfamily dh pun. How was my taste back then? Haha. Dulu taste sy cmnila kot. Lelaki kurus, tinggi, cerah. Tp semua tu zaman cinta monyet. Sekarang selera mak dah berubah nyah. Wekekekrkekk... Igt lg, dia senior saya kt sekolah rendah. Dia std6, sy std4. Masa firsssssst time nmpk dia dulu sumpah jatuh cinta tahap dlm dunia ni dia sorg je yg paling hensem! Weeee... zaman tu zaman AtoZ itik gembo2 tu. Muka dia pulak masa tu saling tak tumpah mcm Lan AtoZ. Ape lg, angaula cik gayah melekap telinga mlm2 kt radio dgr lagu AtoZ, Darjat. "Beza antara kita, rupa darjat dan harta, sudikah terima..." Gitteeeeww cik gayah masih hafal lirik. Wekekekekkk. Bila time sekolah agama (belah ptg), suka tgk dia pkai songkok. Ada style woo dia pkai songkok. Zaman tu kan zaman rambut M. Follow style nick backstreetboys katenyee. Lawakla bila igt2. Tp sungguh, diala jejaka idaman cik gayah masa tu. Hahahah Nk dijdikn cerita, lps upsr dia masuk sekolah mnengah. 2thun kmudian sy pulak, tp at a different school. The best part sekolah kami dekat2. There was 1moment, akhir thun f1 ke f2 ntah. Kami tserempak masa balik sekolah. Dia punyala nk meluru kt saya (dia naik basikal nk cross jln), sampai almost being hit by a car! Reason why sbb dia xtgk kiri kanan, trus mluru kt sy. Wahhhhhh, hindustan sgt masa tu :) oh btw, muka dia muda2 dlu ada iras2 akshay khanna jg jgn memain! Haha Lps drpd tu, kami mmg lost contact. Zaman tu hp bru je keluar kot. Hp nokia. Sy mmg xdela hp kan. So smpi itu jelah cmta monyet cik gayah.. Memandangkn sy ni kaki stalker, sy download skali gmbr anak dia. Supercomel! Tgk la wife dia uolls. Alhamdulillah hepi tgk dia dpt bina fmly cmtu. Even sy tumpang bahagia tgk gmbr2 dia :)

Siapa sangka, lepas 15tahun, sy still ingat nama dia and birthdate dia :) **fizuddin, 21 april tahun? Tahun gajah!**

Apepun, ni jgla bulan bintang saya skrg. Heart you!

I miss you!

Lets interpret this picture :)

#wife gets mad at husband and husband is calming wife down #husband is leaving (outstation maybe?) and wife being so sad to be left out #there was an argument but both always promise to hug each other in times of argument. So that, no matter what, they'll still attach to each other #after a long waits, they finally made up. It was a grateful hug and blessedly tears #hubby is so tall that wife can easily being grabbed to hubby's comfy chest #wife will humbly listen to husband in any circumstance #husband is a mirror to the wife. and vice versa Tak kisahla mcmana pun korang terjemahkan this picture, dont you find it sweet to see a lovable hubby that tightly hugs his wife as if he wont let her go no matter what? :) **update pakai tab hasil mmg cmni. Maap!**

end of the week

Pd siapa yg sempat bca prev entry, rezeki korgla tgk cik gayah meroyan :p Weekend ni best sbb dpt betul2 rehat. Bilik ayor sy dh cuci, laundry ade dlm 4trips td if im not mistaken. Alas tilam dh bganti. Baju je xlipat lg. Kerja surirumah yg paling mcabar gor me I lipat-ing baju. Suruhla sy buat kerja para suri yg lain. InsyaAllah sy ikhlas buat. Tp klu bab lipat baju, rasa nk cekik2 diri sendiri sampai pengsan so xyah kipat baju, haha gila drama. Lipat baju je pun! Yg sy perasan, kebencian utk mlipat bju bganda2 sejak ddk putrajaya ni sbb xdak proper almari. Masa kt KL dulu rajin je jg sy lipat. Dulu sy ada almari n queen size bed. Tp bila pndh sini, semua tggal dlu bg kselesaan bdk yg bru replace my-ex-room. Tup2 bila nk amik skrg, bdk tu dh pndh. & she wasnt care lah of leaving my stuff to a new girl. Nk marah sgt pun xboleh. Tahan bengang jelah. Haishh.. Skrg ni pulak, bila nk mbeli sgt furniture akan fikir bbelas kali. Takut payah nk pndh in future. Tmbh stress klu future house is apartmnt/condo type. Fikir tak fikir, sy beli jg katil single msa mula2 masuk rmh sini. Taktahan tidur atas lantai beralas comforter sbb bdn cheq kuruih keringg takdak isi! Hehe Last but not least, rasa mcm nk create a new blog as my b2b journey. What say you? Should just share it here or proceed wth new b2b blog? **nk tepek gambar en.ubi tp dgn tab leceh sikit... ubi ubi ubi nk laptop satu pleaseeeee :D**

Capsule mini

Life is challenging and complicated. I've seen people with simple life and I was like got bit really envy of them. Rasa nak je minta petua. Petua tak lain tak bukan, be a good muslim. InsyaAllah He gonna ease everything for us.

There are times when I feel like my life's challenges are even challenging than the others. Though I know, ada insan yg lebih2 lg cabaran hidup mereka. Hence I know that I must be strong and betul2 bersyukur dgn apa yg Dia kurniakan buat masa ni.

Looking into my phases with en.Ubi, we rather call the challenges as 'capsule'. We've been through some capsules and we knew that there will be lots of capsules waiting to be launched.

Raya hari tu we've passed one of the capsules. Syukur yg tidak terhingga pd Allah. Closest family members and friends je yg tahu pasal ni. Less people know the better kot at this moment :)

After that, I've started to even more realize that, pusing-pusing kot mana pun, terarahnya kita kembali pd Allah. Dia yg membuka pintu rezeki. Kalau kita rasa kita 'xde rezeki', I will remind myself utk cepat-cepat istighfar. Sbb kita sbg hamba kena sentiasa bersangka baik pd Dia. I am no one of His good caliph but akan cuba cuba dan cuba to be one.

en.Ubi is now trying to launch his own capsule - to inform his parents that he's accepted a new and a better job (insyaAllah) in private sector. Which this would mean that he's offboarding from current office - uitm - govern sector. 

Nothing much i can do as his partner selain giving him full mental and psychology support. Yg mana baik utk masa depan dia, insyaAllah baik utk masa depan kami. Saya yakin setiap tindakan yg dia ambil, our future is well considered by him.

.. I've started mumbling about my job to him. Telling him how my job demand me till sometimes I've ignoring him. So he texted me just now

en.Ubi: Awak nk tau kenapa saya nk cepat kahwin dgn awak?

me: Kenapa...

en.Ubi: Biar awak fokus kerja. Lepas balik kerja, saya nampak je awak. Tak perlu risau. Even saya boleh ambil awak balik kerja, makan sama-sama makanan yg awak masak, buat semua benda bersama. My whole life ada awak. Walau penat mcm mana pun, awak ada. Walaupun hidup tak mudah, tp ada awak

Touched by that, saya rasa nk jadi surirumah sepenuh masa pulak haih..!

Salam Aidilfitri.

ala tomei-tomei..

Assalamu'alaikum! 

Lama betul xjumpa naa? Sihat? Puasa tak? :)

Ha... korang mampu belum apa-apa lagi dh letak gmbar bakal makmen?? Hahahah. Tgk tu permainan cik gayah - style tangan kiri tolak handbag ke belakang sedikit agar tidak mengganggu konsentrasi mencari dan memilih cincin idaman saling tak tumpah seperti bakal makmen. Ni bukan ambil hati ambil berkat atau bodek segala okeh. Ni jodoh namanya. Pffthhh~~

Ni nk cerita sikit pengalaman 'keluar' bersama bakal makmen utk cari cincin.

en.Ubi selalu cakap, he always wanted to buy me Habib. Sbb the first ring that he bought for me was from Habib. So he want to make it as a legacy. Mungkin bg korang like ntahpapentah ber-legasi bagai. Tp sentimental value nya only en.Ubi & me yg tahu, yg rasa :)

So, by time keluar dgn bakal makmen, hati for sure rasa mcm nk pergi Habib Setia City Mall (closest to rumah ffil). Tp bakal makmen ajak pi Shah Alam. And so we went.. I somehow proud with myself, sbb wpun hati sendiri was like dh ada 'aim' nk ke Habib, but I didnt felt frust ke, nk bg cadangan lain ke, or what-so-not bila xdapat pergi Habib. I smiled a lot instead, when be with her and together looking for the ring. Kami ambil masa stgh jam utk keluar masuk bberapa buah kedai emas and finally, we managed to 'get' the ring.

Cepatkan setengah jam? Sy pun terkejut sbb we managed to find the ring dlm masa yg singkat. Selalunya bila dh berkenan pd design, size pulak xde (size jari manis sy 6" if berbatu & 8" if solid plain). But this time around, everything was on track :)

Add to my surprise, bakal makmen yg bayarkan for the ring. I've never thought of this. Selalu, akan tnya en.Ubi, berapa budget dia for the ring? Sbb takut sakan sgt pilih smpi botak kepala en.Ubi. And masa pilih2 cincin tu, bakal makmen keep on asking to the Sales Asst, "yg berat sikit xde? yg padu sikit xde?" Me was like, err... cukup ke tu budget en.Ubi?? But everything turned as a relief bila bakal makmen keluarkan credit card beliau. Muahahahaahahah! Thank you ibu! (awwwww, I'm practicing yaww! :p )

i don't need you to promise me anything

but i do need you to promise to Allah

that you'll be a good caliph to Him 

so that you'll be a good Imam to me

makan hati

Esok keje tp mata gatai norr tamau lelap sbb dia tahu esok patutnya cuti tp still nk keje jg bakpenye. en.Ubi pun dh malas nk layankan perangai nk sambung ke xnk sambung.. Oh ni bukan sandiwara cintan-cintun ye peminat semua (peminat??). Ni 'sambung' benda lain. Sy ada masa sampai isnin ni utk fikir. Wish me rajin utk berfikir k.

Weekend got class, got test, got agenda with future-makmen. Tatau patut upload gmbr ke tidak utk activity mggu ni. Yg tu pun fikir nnt.

Meh sini sy dengarkan apa yg sy dengar sokmo lately. Sebelum tidur, time nk bsiap gi keje, tp stress dgn keje, time bengang dgn org, time rindu kt org.. 

Sbb kadang-kadang nk baca semuka surat quran pun boleh bg reason x sempat (astaghfirullah..). So i've said to myself, xboleh jadik camni. Takut pintu hati tertutup. Biar perut lapa nasik. Jgn hati lapa zat-zatNya.

Mendayu je kan suara ustaz Dzulkarnain ni? Buat kita sedih, insaf, rindu kt Allah :')

Ni sebelum saya tidur ni, saya nk maafkan semua org yg mungkin ada buat saya terasa hati. Dan yg sewajarnya, saya pun minta maaf utk silap-salah saya. Sama ada tak sengaja atau terpaksa (ada meh buat org sedih dgn terpaksa? jawabnya, Ada!). 

Alfatihah.. Semoga sejahtera dunia akhirat.

 

kira-kira #1

"i let you see the parts of me that weren't all pretty

and with every touch advice you fixed them"

 

*sekarang ni saya tengah musim lagu ni*

Oh Ashraf

Sangat sedih baca yg Ashraf Muslim dh nikah lg 1 kt Thailand. Seriously sgt sedih. Emosi sgt2 rasanya. Tatau kenapa.. Mungkin sbb he is one of the good examples tht i always adore. Emosi tau :'(

Walau apapun sebab dia 'terpaksa' bernikah kali kedua di Thailand, sy tetap sedih. Paling sedih sbb fizikal second wife dia tak sesopan Dayana, his first wife. 

Tp wallahu'alam. Hal rumah tangga tak siapa tahu. Cumanya, sy sedih sbb dia nikah kali kedua tanpa izin Dayana dan kerana dia nikah di Thailand dan kerana second wife tak sesopan Dayana. Saya sedih :'( But who am I to judge..

Sorry peeps, my emotion quite imbalance sbb keje mengalahkan org bangla org nepal org burma. I came to office at 7am and just get home at 10.30pm. You guys do the math. Sy cuma berbuka with 3biji kurma, air nescafe suku cawan. That's it. And now im so tired that i got sooo emotional on knowing that Ashraf Muslim getting married again without permission of his first wife.

Im sad. Nite.

years from now

saya respect wanita bekerjaya yg ada anak. sy yg bujang ni pun tak terdaya nk urus itu ini, nk fikir itu ini. mana nk fikir hal keje, mana nk fikir jaga hati kawan-kawan, mana nk bantu family, mana nk uruskan diri sendiri, mana nk melawat future inlaws, mana nk layan en.ubi. time flies, and am getting to another chapter of my age.. tak berapa bulan je lg. tempoh 24jam sehari never enough for me. but when in times im in the midst of problems, i always pray to Allah to make the earth rounds the sun even faster.

buble: all that i needs to think of

you guys remember this song? i just love it 

*sila tamatkan terawih kome 8rekaat dulu baru dengar lagu ni k*

 

 

What will I be years from now
What will I wear, how will I look
I think too much, I think too much

Sometimes it's scary over thinking
What you have or haven't done
You think too much, you think too much

Will the rain smell the same
Will our loosing treacherous game
And the star much shine
The colours seem so blurry

Will I end up all alone
Without a shoulder to cry on

What will I be years from now
I have answered them but none have answered me
And when my time has come
I hope my last seconds in this life will have you
Will have you

Will the rain smell the same
Will our loosing treacherous game
And neglect most people who
Seems so worthy

Cerita buka puasa

Esok sy kene keje sbb keje banyak bukan sbb sy sayang shell okeh.. Mata xleh lelap lg hence posting this.

Td dpt mkn dgn en.Ubi. Gembira, sedih, perasaan bercampur-campur. Sedih sbb dpt jumpa saaaat je. Bulan puasa, xleh jumpa lama-lama :p

Memandangkan hari ni special sikit (first day iftar sama-sama this year), en.Ubi request sy utk masak ayam masak merah. So sy pun dgn penuh kasih sayang masakla utk beliau. Habis segala fatihah and doa-doa kasih sayang sy baca tatkala (tatkala??) masak tu. Untung-untung en.Ubi kenyang dan rasa yg enak-enak je dr air tangan sy. Tp en.Ubi cakap ada yg terkurang (if were to compare dgn sbelum ni sy masak utk dia). Baru teringat, eh kita kan tak tawen lg. So kalau masak dgn seguni kasih sayang pun belum dapat pahala masak utk s-u-a-m-i. Tehehee..

Cik gayah mai gatai pulak bulan-bulan posa nih.

Takpe, takpe. Practice makes perfect. Dlm pada ada yg 'terkurang' tu pun, 2kali en.Ubi tambah nasi :) Tak kisahla dia amik hati sy ke apa, yg penting, lapang dada tgk dia kenyang makan :)

Nah kalau korang nk try:

Kami berbuka kt kedai makan Kam Nan ke apentah nama kedai tu. Kt area Kg.Baru. Last year pernah mkn kt sini dgn budak-budak kelas. Yg bestnya kt sini tomyam dia and colek! *terliur*

Ini pulak lauk tambahan. Nasi seperiuk ha kau dia bagi.. Tp mmg camni style kedai dia kalau min 2org makan. Kalau sorang je dtg makan tp dia bg nasi seperiuk jg confirm org kedai tu perli korang. Wekeekkekek

en.Ubi order kangkung goreng belacan, sy order sup daging pedas-pedas sikit :)

Ni menu wajib en.Ubi kalau gi bazaar kt Kg.Baru - Roti Goreng Mc Gyver. 

Dah tu je nk share. KENA tidur sbb esok keje. Sobs..sobs.. :(

Vaksin

Ramadhan kareem to all! Kt office bila dpt call dr employee dr Oman, semua pakat Ramadhan kareem brother, Ramadhan kareem sister. Feeling jd org middle east gitu.

Korang sahur berbuka makan apa? Sy, jgn ditanya. Sy puasa bujang so makan berbuka pun bujang. Tunggula hujung minggu baru berbuka cukup sifat sikit kot sbb ada en.Ubi. Dia xde, menu semua ikut muat tekak sendiri je. 

Hari tu sebelum masuk bulan puasa ktorg pergi berjoli kt Jusco AU2. Beli barang-barang utk puasa ni. Byk jugala beli. Beli cornflakes (tp bukan nk buat kuih raya, ni buat sahur), beli ribena (utk consume vitamin c), beli nestum, beli keropok, beli nugget, beli sayur, beli ayam, ketupat instant pun sy beli tau! Ketupat kn my favorite so xpayah tggu raya. Time nk bbuka pun dh boleh mkn ketupat dh. Nnt nk buat ayam masak merah. en.Ubi cakap ayam masak merah sy sedap :) Ker, dia amek hati je? Err...

Ok, actually sy nk share some info yg might be useful for moms and for myself too in future. I have 2 girlfriends yg dh jd mommy. Both, kawan sekolah menengah and we are not that close so sy cuma stalk fb and blog dorg je. Yg sorang ni, suami dia kerja petronas kot. Kt sarawak ke cmtula lbh kurang. Dianya xbekerja (yela, gaji suami banyak gila kot!) tp dia buat business Shaklee. This girl, i name it M. M is against vaccines for her babygirl. Maybe sbb ada org yg close to her, anaknya suffered from autism lepas divaksin. So dia mmg against vaccines.

Meanwhile, my girlfriend N, suami dia sy xigt keje apa but N keje kt lab. She used to be a medic student. N ni pulak menyokong pengambilan vaksin pd babyboy dia. Ayat dia yg sy igt smpi laa ni, "dorg x kerja khospital, xkeje lab. dorg tak tahu betapa byknya penyakit bahaya skrg ni"

Bila baca post2 dan hujah2 M, sy tertarik. Bila baca entry N pun sy tertarik. Sbb masing2 keluarkan hujah beserta fakta-fakta mengapa perlu/tidak perlu mem-vaksin anak-anak masing2.

At one point, im confused mana satu yg sahih. (kau gayah memikior mcm nk terberanak esok lusa!)

Kebetulan Dr.Harlina; wife to Dr.Sheikh Muzaffar discussed about this in her blog. Hence, im now relief and know what to decide for my future kids.

So mommies and yg kemaruk verangan nk jadi mummy mcm sy ni ha, let's have a read: http://barelysupermommy.com/

p/s: td en.Ubi cerita pengalaman dia berkhatan. super meriah, sbb masa tu org berarak utk reformasi tahun 1998 ;p

Burger Bakar

Letih. Baru pulang. Tgk bilik, kalah rupa titanic masa dh langgar iceberg. Mana taknya, 2minggu tak kemas bilik, tak cuci bilik air. Euww! Kan sy dh cakap sy dilanda kemalasan.. Ni mesti jerebu punya pasal... (Motip sgt kan salahkan jerebu. Cet!)

So hari ni klas statistik lagi. Alhamdulillah, sem ni seronok. Tiga2 subject dpt lecturer yg cool. Lg seronok sbb dpt jumpa en.Ubi. Meowww!! ;)

There was one day he asked me, "xxxx, kita serasi tak?" Sy pelik dgn soalan tu tp layankan je. Bila ditanya knp tanya mcmtu, dia cakap sbb dia tgk gmbr kahwin kawan dia - sorang hitam sorang putih. Kalau sy tgh gogok air time tu confirm tersembur! Alahai buah hati sorang ni - ni mesti kes dia risau sbb dia hitam sy putih. Kekekekeekk

Awak xdela hitam legam.. Awak xdela hitam smpi kena suluh spotlight baru nmpk batang hidung. Dan sy tang mana yg putihnya?? Nk kata kuning langsat pun xberlangsat mana sy ni. Rasanya kebetulan kot awak lebih gelap dr sy so nmpkla sy cerah sikit! Jgn risau ye.. Kita sepadan je, kita serasi je :)

Nah. Sy tepek lagu utk awak. Terima kasih utk sebelum-sebelum ni dan hari-hari mendatang :)

Oh sebenarnya nk bercerita pasal smlm lepas mengidam nk mkn burger bakar abg burn kt shah alam. Selalu baca kt blog kak di, dia cakap super nice burger bakar kt situ. Memusing jugala cari kedai tu. Igtkn dekat deret2 jakel ke ariani ke (yg kt pintu belakang uitm). Rupanya kt the other side - kt belakang pizza/kfc (still kt pintu belakang uitm)

Knowing that im not a fan of meat, sy just nk give a try la. Terliur juga tgk kak di cerita pasal ni kan. TAPIIIIIIIIIIII.. Still sy rasa meatball abg burn xboleh lawan meatball ikea. Hahah. Ni kalau kak di baca confirm kena bebel dgn dia sbb dok compare kan rasa meatball malaysia dgn meatball switzerland. Jgn marah kak di! :p

Ok ok serious. Apa yg kak di summarize tu mmg betul. Contohnya mcm - mmg meatball abg burn penuh padat dgn meat. Takde tepung2 ni. Tp ni la kot yg buat not-a-meat-fan mcm sy ni lg cepat muak sikit dgn the meatball. TAPIIIIIIIIII haha tapi lg :p Tapi kalau meatball ikea sy tatau knp sy rasa ianya super lazat super nikmat masyaAllah!! :) :) :) Lg apa ek yg kak di komen and betul? O ha, kak di bgtahu, pekerja2 dia kemas. Yes ni mmg tepat. Cuma by time sy smpi tu (malam), keadaan dlm kedai bersesak-sesak sbb dorg xbuka semua kerusi meja. Part ni sy xfaham. Kalau ikutkan gayah sy, nk je sy tanya kt pekerja tu, "Knp tak buka kerusi meja yg kt luar tu dik? Customer melimpah ruah beratur smpi luar kedai ni ha". Yup, customer which most of them are students mmg beratur pjg nk membeli burger bakar. Lagi yg sy nk bg feedback, ialah harga. en.Ubi cakap harga kt situ lebih mahal dr burger bakar kt tempat yg dia selalu makan- kt meru. Kalau kt kedai abg burn ni, burger daging rm9.50, kt meru dlm rm6.50 je. And en.Ubi cakap the taste is even better yg kt meru tu. Wallahu'alam. Lain org lain tekak lain rasa. Ye tak?

en.Ubi punya

sy punya

ehem. ni pun sy punya juga ;D

 Bai. Nk start kemas bilik. Ouhh bring-home-quiz tak siap lagi...!!

Merenung

Well, i've been thinking what it's like to be a wife to someone? Dlm bayangan sy, sy akan jd seorang isteri yg caring tp menyinga sikit. Haha. Ofcoursela i will pamper my husband like a prince but at the same time, sy akan lentur (amboih kau siap melentur suami bagai gayah?) suami sy supaya follow rule in the house, in being a family, being a dad :) Rule, sama2 akan olah. Contoh simple la, biarla sepuluh kali sehari pun i have to remind him about put socks or shoe in place lepas balik kerja, or to remind him to off the lights after using the washroom, i'll be sabar to do it. Nada tu mmg menyinga sikit, tp tetap sabar utk keep repeating it.

And i will understand his craziness about games. Perhaps i've been dreaming to spare a room for his super high-tech device pc what-so-not. Even better to have him terperuk kt rumah main game dr dia keluar melepak kt mamak. Agree? Depends la, ada org setuju, ada org tidak.

Tu imaginasi sy la..

Talking about being a wife, let me share with you. Yes, wherever i go, whenever i meet people, soalan yg paling kerap sy dgr skrg ialah bila majlis? bila nk kahwin? bila nk makan nasi minyak? Bab tnya bila nk makan nasi minyak tu mmg rasa nk terus orderkan nasi minyak kt JM Beriani House. Deyy, pegi beli sendiri kt kedai sudah....

Emosi kan? Ye mmg emosi. Sy faham knp org btanya. Tp sy jg bharap org faham, knp belum kunjung tiba jemputan dr sy. Takde jawapan lain yg lebih jujur yg boleh sy katakan. Kerana Allah belum mengizinkan. Manakah dtg setiap kejadian tanpa izin Allah? Usaha, sy dh usaha. Sedia, sy dh sedia. Tp yg belum hadirnya cuma izin Allah. And in this matter, hanya Allah yg tahu apa yg PALING terbaik utk sy dan jodoh.

Setiap org ujiannya berbeza. Sy percaya tu. Ada org pernah nasihatkan sy, kalau sebelum kahwin kita rasa penuh dgn dugaan, mungkin hikmahnya lepas kahwin - kita tidak lg diduga sehebat sebelum kahwin. Siapa tahukan?

Makin sy muhasabah diri, makin sy tenang. Kalau tak sebelum ni mmg rasa SANGAT bkecamuk. Malah sy malas dalam segala hal. Yes i mean it. S-E-G-A-L-A  H-A-L. Tp tu lah Allah pesan, kalau kita berniat utk ke arah kebaikan, yg kita akan temukan juga adalah kebaikan. Sy ganti puasa hari ni setelah bbrapa kali niat puasa tp langgar jg di tengahari. Peningla, sesak nafasla - mmg sy tahu tu akibat sy xsahur. Tp the main reason ialah sbb nawaitu sy x utuh, x ikhlas pdNya. And today, alhamdulillah segala pujian bg Allah, sy berjaya jg puasa wpun tpaksa bjalan kaki ke bus stop tengahari nk pi keje.

Nk tahu apa 'hadiah' Allah to me for my puasa today? DiturunkanNya rezeki yg sy xsangka. Sy dpt juadah bbuka free! Dhla juadah tu kegemaran sy! I had nasi impit with kuah kacang and daging masak hitam. Kuih-muih jgn cerita la.. And the best part was, semua tu rasanya to the top bebeh! Mmg sgt2 kena dgn selera sy :)) 

Kemudian sy dpt pertimbangan utk jadual masa bulan puasa (jadual kerja sebelum ni buat sy susah hati). Kemudian lg, dlm cab balik dr kerja, sy dpt driver yg pasang tazkirah and zikir dlm cab dia. You guys know what? Sy dh lama dh halakn telinga sy pd zikir-zikir. Sayu je hati dlm cab td bila dgr pujian2 untuk Nya... :'(

So dr sepanjang-panjang yg sy cerita kt atas nun, sy cuma nk sampaikan:

1) sedarlah betapa hebatnya Kun Fa Ya Kun tu. Takkan terjadi sesuatu tanpa izinNya

2) kadang-kadang kita akan terkeluar dr landasan sbb kita bukan ahli tahfiz, malah bukan org yg akan hadir di setiap jemaah solah pun, jd tergelincir dr jalan Allah itu pasti akan terjadi. Jadi muhasabah lah wpun sedetik. Muhasabah sedetik itu lebih hebat kesannya dr ibadah seribu tahun tanpa tahu pengisiannya.

Salam Ramadhan untuk semua. 

Doakan sy dpt bertemu Ramadhan. 

Doakan sy bersedia rohani dan jasmani untuk bertemu Ramadhan.

Doakan sy jauh dr kejahilan dan dekat dengan kebenaran.

My heart is officially broken, by now. Can hide no more...

after class

Lepas kelas hari ni sy bercinta monyet ngan en.Ubi. Mcm mana bercinta monyet? We went to place by place. Haha. Xdak keja. Masing-masing konon nk spend masa together-gether, sembang yg patut2, do things together.. Ni semua gara2 ktorg rasa too many things happened around and we need a break.

Mula2 lepak semarak (nama medan selera kt sebelah kampus space), then pergi wangsa walk. Nk tgk monster inc tp queue subhanAllah punyalah panjang. So pusingla sat kt situ. Motif konon nk cari case for camera tp yg 'terbelinya' case utk ms-tabuu. Siapa ms-tabu?? Ni ha my ms-tabuu. 

Whenever 'dia' is with me, nama dia ms-tabuu. Whenever 'dia' with en.Ubi, nama dia mr.tabii. Erkkkkk, dh mcm luar tabii la pulak! U remain jadi gugurl jelah my dear! ;p

Motippp sgt kan tab pun ada nama bagai. Ngengada kau gayah. Mencik mencik ;p Nextttttttt!

Next dh bosan kt situ, sy merengek kt en.Ubi soh bawa pi nagoya kt carefour wangsamaju. Saja nk hilangkan gian shopping kain ela. Baju kurung keja pun dh asyik2 ulang baju yg sama. Tu yg nk cari kain ela murah2 kt nagoya. Tp kali ni x byk pilihan pulak kt situ. Dptla selai warna purple kain ela. Dan dan mengidam rasa nk pi kamdar jln tar.... 

Nextttttttt ktorg pergi klcc pulak. Gigih la konon nk tgk jg movie. Punnnnnnnnnn queue subhanAllah. Tak sampai 5minit beratur en.Ubi fed-up terus ajak round floor by floor, cari surau, zohor, pastu duduk kt starbuck. Lama jgla kt situ. Sembang itu sembang ini, dia tgk titew, titew tgk dia ;p usha perangai org, tgk jerebu, yg penting masa ni - rest. 

Moving on perut pun dh lapaq, ktorg gi cari makan kt kg.baru. Fokus nk cari satay padang (ke satay minang ntah en.Ubi cakap) tp stall tutup. End up we ate nasi goreng minang. Nasi goreng minang ni warna oren lbh kurang nasi goreng kita, cumanya dorg tabur hirisan daging rebus kt atas nasi tu. Ada telur dadar siap. Nice jgla since perut mmg lapa.

Pehtu masing2 gerak balik. Masing2 hati tenang wpun penant wpun ngantuk.

gua tempurung

hangpa pernah masuk gua? sy pernah, gua tempurung. best. pengalaman yg unik sbb dr dlm gua tu, kita boleh belajar sejarah, kita boleh belajar sains, kita boleh belajar ilmu ghaib. macam-macam. paling best, bila kita bercakap dalam gua, suara akan bergema. gema akan menyelinap ke celah-celah stalagmites and stalactites and kemudian pufff! hilang!

sy rindu nk masuk gua. sy nk cerita resah hati sy dalam gua. dgn harapan gema membawa resah hati hilang dicelah-celah stalagmites and stalactites..

wish

How I wish I could get one of my wishlist tonight...

Im tired of waiting for the star to shine in my hand. Bless me Allah

How do i..

Afterall, how do i live without you...

heart you sweetheart. thank you for everything :')

bali. from my eyes and lense

Alhamdulillah sy selamat sampai :) Happy sgt2 tak dapat digambarkan bila dh pijak bumi Malaysia. Let me rate Bali from my personal perspective k. In scale 1(xbest) to 10(best), i would say Bali is only at 4. Belum dtg mood nk bercerita pjg lebar. Nk edit gmbr utk blog pun xde mood. So tepek gmbr yg dh diupload kt fb jelah k. Happy scrolling!

first time kan, so jakun la sikit. hewhew

sampai airport pukul 9lbh. pjalanan 3jam

lobby hotel kami

vandalism oleh anak remaja bali

want to make this as collection when travel. amik gmbr no.plat!

tanah lot yg supercantik. subhanAllah!

tanah lot. pura (temple) tengah with holy water+holy snake

ni bahan sembahyang dorg. akan ada di mana-mana kwsn bali

balinese's addiction. suka norr mengukir. tanjat boboi

gmbr ni ada pd duit 5000rp. kwsn kt sini panas tp sgt berangin

pokok ni sgt unik but couldnt find it's name

ni tmpt kami lunch. 5min dr pura ulun. sedap? biasa je

agak scary kan? ni entrance pura t'akhir yg kami visit

sewa motor utk cari tempat makan yg best

cara isi bensin (minyak) kt kwsn kg. petrol station ada kt pekan

kedai jual bensin tepi jln2 kg

pantai kuta punya air. haha

sanggup bpanas n jd sea-patrol sbb takut main air

cool kan gmbr ni? kombinasinya menarik gitu

insyaAllah sy akan share everything that i have experienced there. it's not that everything are frustrate me. Ada je part yg best kt sana. So, wait for next entry ya!

for the time being, jom berangan nk pergi mana pulak for next vacation :)

bali. rest or stress?

Assalamu'alaikum. Sy kt lobi hotel ni.. xboleh tidur sbb dlm bilik internet fluctuate so tunjuk protes la konon dgn melepak kt lobi. Haha. Berani tunjuk protes kt negara orang?? Harus dibenci-in mbok2 bali. Gituu...

I wont cerita pjg lebar about my trip here (at least for now) sbb I dont feel like bcerita. I feel annoyed instead.

Well, I joined this trip by ofce event but we (me n ada one of ths friend) came out wth the idea to extend the trip. So yg extended days tu mmg pakai duit poket sndiri. My friend ni dh serah bulat2 to me on hotel booking flight check in semua. Yg mbuat gue jelek amat, ha kn dh kluar bahasa bali! Ialah bilamana semua bnda pun dia nk complain. Deyy, kalau nk perfect buat sndiri la. Bukan main order je! Eee... sakit hati tau dgn makhluk cenggini.

Pastu kn biasanya jmpa kt ofce je. Mmg pernah org ckp, dia ni kasar. Kasar la segala hal. Pwatakan, apetah lg bahasa. Sumpah kasar. Bikin gue tambah jelek. Haishhh. So bila kt sini barula like betul2 kenal siapa beliau.

Dgn tak mandi paginya 1 hal. Kdg2 smpi tahap 1hari xmandi pun dia xkisah!

Pasu bila kita tgh bsiap, dia akn mbebel ckp sy ni bsiap lmbtla apela. Hello! Sy dh siap packing then pergi mndi. Pastu bru kejut dia bgn tido. Then pakai baju tudung semua x ber-iron. Sanggup x iron bju tudung sbb takut dia rasa leceh. But then boleh dia cakap sy lmbt?? Bolehla ckp cmtu bila mungggg tak mandi!!!

Jelek. Jelek. Jelek.

Pastu kentut dlm bilik bau nya masyaAllah...... you guys cant imagine, ok lg bau kentut en.Ubi. haha. Tetiba.

Dhla. Hate to express ths kind of feeling tp nk jg luah supaya xstress sorg2. Good night peeps!

testing tab

Hi guys. Assalamu'alaikum wbt. This is the first time im updating blog via tab. Kinda cacat jgla since I feel like my palm is too small for the tab. I have nothing in particular to update except that im TOTALLY tired. I went home from ofce at 11pm by blue camry cab. Fare was fair enoughla dr ofce ke rmh (20 minutes). The frust part, it's not that I've settle all my task. Nooo! Stay late pun keje xkn prnh siap. Haishhhh...

Dh dh nk tidur mnjakn diri. Esok jln jauh. Good night guys!

Wedding Dress

wedding dress anak rosyam nor ni superduper inspiring!!! mission started!

focus: make up

though i heart natural make up, but this one that i name it as christina-aguilera-make-up is totally gojes! imma big fun of the lipstik-merah-makngah! suka suka suka!!!!!

fokus: tudung

selitan tudung SANGAT kemas dan tampak selesa. mcm mana buat tu yeh?? dan baju. oh lace! i announce myself as lacey-natik!

focus: kain ramburamba

nangis tgk kain ramburamba. sobs.. sobs.. cantikkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk..!!!

little love note

9 days ago en.Ubi wrote me something and sent it to my email. to my surprise, i didnt notice it sampai la ke hari ni td baru terbaca. it's an emotional yet lovely thing that come from his heart. the way he put the words makes me melt (heh?) and bgenang jgla ayaq mata..

ok, ok, serious.

of course i wont share it here but maybe sy boleh terjemahkan dlm bentuk lain. 

en.Ubi sang this to me the other day when we went out together :')

nota cin*a utk en.Ubi:

wo ai ni!

Erti Perkahwinan

Erti perkahwinan bg setiap individu mungkin pd dasarnya sama, tp pengertian masing-masing, adalah berbeza.

Perkahwinan utk diri sy sendiri (ye, sy belum berkahwin. jd ini cuma pemahaman bujang sy ttg erti perkahwinan) adalah tanggungjawab. 

1. Menunaikan tanggungjawab pd Allah dan Rasul.

Setelah Allah ciptakan manusia itu dr dua jantina, satunya lelaki dan satunya perempuan. Kemudian dikurniakanNya perasaan cinta kpd manusia, diajarNya cara bernikah dan bersuami isteri dgn tepat dan terperinci melalui kekasihNya Muhammad. Jd bila kita bernikah/berkahwin, bererti menjalankan tanggungjawab sbg hambaNya.

2. Menunaikan tanggungjawab pd kedua org tua

Memanjangkan keturunan yg dibawa turun-temurun dr ibubapa kita. Zuriat yg terhasil dr sebuah perkahwinan memberikan keceriaan kepada mereka dan percayalah, kita sbnrnya membuka peluang utk mereka memanjakan si cucu kerana kebanyakkannya, mereka cuma sempat bertegas dgn anak2 kala mereka masih muda. Jd bila kita bernikah/berkahwin, bererti memberi peluang kpd ibubapa merasai apa yg mereka terlepas sblum ini.

3. Menunaikan tanggungjawab pd pasangan

Kalau masa bercinta, tanggungjawab skadar ambil tahu. Tp bila telah diijabkabulkn, tanggungjawab adalah menanggung setiap apa yg pasangan kita tanggung. Dan menjadi jawapan kpd persoalan pasangan. Jika pasangan kita bersedih kerana tiada yg menghormatinya, kitalah yg bertanggungjawab utk mhilangkan sedihnya. Bagaimana? Dgn menghormatinya. Jika pasangan ragu jika kita adalah jodohnya, kitalah yg menjawabnya - Iya. Meyakinkan pasangan, menenangkan pasangan, itu adalah tanggungjawab.

4. Menunaikan tanggungjawab pd diri sendiri

Pernikahan yg sempurna adalah bila kita mendapat ketenangan disebalik ibadah nikah. Bukankan nikah itu umpama menyempurnakan sebahagian iman?

Jalan bernikah itu dtgnya dr Allah. Maka yakinlah.

Jika kita ketemukan dugaan di sepanjang perjalanan tu, yakinlah bahawa Allah Maha Mengetahui setiap satu yg diaturkanNya. Bahagia kita mungkin bukan hari ini atau semalam atau kelmarin, tp mungkin esok atau lusa atau minggu depan. 

Siapa tahu? Allah tahu.