I smiled. My heart becomes bigger and wider. Bkn sbb dia ckp saya cantik. Tp yg sorg ni ladang tebu di bibirnya tak pernah kering buat saya. Tebu2nya sentiasa manis. :)
So here we are today, dgn smgt yg he always share with me, I think Im healthy and stronger enough to share with you guys - what was happened to me for the last.. 10months! How time flies..
4 Oktober 2013, Jumaat
At 12midnight, saya masih di ofis. Berdua dgn kwn lelaki cina. Saya kena pastikan kerja2 saya siap sbb isnin dan selasa mggu dpn saya dh apply cuti nk ke kelantan. And the chinese guy, dia teman/tggu saya sbb dia nk hntr saya pulang. There were rumors tht this guy has a crush on me sbb muka his ex looks like me. Let it be rumors jelah. I treat him as a friend only, somehow. Almost 2pm he sent me till doorstep. Masuk rmh, naik bilik, bumm tidur.
5 Oktober 2013, Sabtu
Tersedar bila matahari hmpir terpacak atas bumbung rumah. Sepatutnya harini saya kena packing brg sbb esok saya nk swap bilik dgn bdk bilik bwh. Tp bdn masih sgt letih jd sy golek2 ambil mood nk betul2 bangun. Golek pnya golek last2 saya terlena blk. Then terjaga lg. Kali ni hampir mgrb! Bingkas saya bgn. Perut pun dh mula lapar. Mandi, solat, then saya turun ke dapur tgk apa yg ada utk dimkn. Apparently yg plg cpt nk disediakn cuma maggie. No frozen food, no cereals, no fruits. Semua dh xde stok dlm freezer. So i cook the maggie. Together, i made milo ice suku jug. Dh siap semua, bawa naik bilik dan mkn.
Selesai mkn, tgk dr satu pnjuru ke satu pnjuru blk, arrgghh byknya brg nk kna pack! Saya mula perlahan-lahan. Saya pack dulu brg2 hantaran yg perlu dibawa blk ke muar mggu dpn. Hampir ke pukul 10mlm, rehat mem-packing, saya capai tab and thought of scrolling fb what-so-not. Leka with it, tiba2 my hp rang. It was en.Ubi. I jumped onto my bed konon nk ambil feel bergayut smbil golek2 ats katil. We were talking like a lovely birds tnya buat apa, dh mkn ke, mkn apa, he spotcheck on me brg2 dh packing ke blm, blabla until suddenly i felt pening kepala. Terdetik dlm hati, knp pulak tiba2 pening ni?
I lightly inform en.Ubi tht i have headache. He asked me to get panadol but Im not fancy at any medicine so nnt2 lah mkn ubat. Plus saya fikir, kjp lg hlg lah pening ni kot. Tak lama kemudian my stomach pulak crumple so hard. Saya ckp kt en.Ubi saya rasa mcm nk berry so tht i want to hang the phone but he insist to stay on the line. This wasnt somethg weird to us. Dlm bilik air pun kami mmg cool je bergayut telefon x kisahla masa tu masing2 tgh buat apa. Ok dh buka pekung di dada. Haizz.
Sambung cerita.. wlupun perut memulas tg teramat sgt but there was nothing yg keluar. Lgsung xde apa. Almost 20minutes ddk kt toilet bowl dgn kepala sakit, perut sakit but xde apa keluar, I find myself starts berpeluh2. I told en.Ubi tht saya rasa something not right with my body and I want to hang up the phone. En.Ubi x bg saya letak telefon, instead he asks me utk buka pintu toilet spya udara flow, unlock pintu bilik, & bwa mineral bottle masuk toilet n minum. I obeyed sbb dh x blh berfikir sndiri dh masa tu. Sakit perut makin menjadi2 dan peluh makin dahsyat. At this point, saya rasa nk pegang hp pun dh x larat. Saya mnta lg skali kt en.Ubi nk letak telefon dulu. He ok ths time dgn syarat I call him back lpsni. I assured him.
Right after he hang up the phone, saya basuh2 muka. Baju basah time tu saya x fikir apa dh. Yg saya tahu, saya nk selesakn bdn dr peluh2 ni. Rasa nk muntah pulak. Wek skali dua, xde apa keluar. Kalini ada satu perasaan pelik dtg. I felt like, ya Allah, what is wrong wth me..? Sakit perut dtg blk. I sat at toilet bowl again. Nothing still. Dr bhgian dada ke kepala peluh makin hebat. I can feel jntung saya beats faster than usual. Saya terus rasa like x blh jadi ni! Knp lain sgt ni? Pelik sgt pelik sbb everythg dh out of control. Saya bgn, saya ambil wudu'. 2kali saya berwudu'. The frst time saya berwudu' tu just because saya rasa nk avoid myself dehidrate. Tp kmudian terdetik dlm hati saya.. is 'my time' already here..? Perasaan tu dtg sekali lalu je. Sbb tu saya berwudu' lg skali. Smbil tutup pili air, saya mengucap. It just happen. I wasnt plan it but it just came out from my mouth.
Saya pegang dinding nk bjln keluar ke pintu bilik air sbb risau jatuh. Sempat I grabbed my hp. Betul2 di pintu blk air, lap kaki pd alas, then masa saya nk bjalan ke katil, my left leg gave me a weird signal. Saya taktahu nk describe in writing mcmna but bila got tht signal, lg lah saya freak out - what happen to meeeee!? So I ran to my bed. Bump! Saya hempas bdn kt katil, mengiring ke kiri. Sgt rasa x bermaya. Mata nk tertutup je. Sakit perut seolah hlg skjp. Kepala masih sakit yg teramat. Bdn masih berpeluh.
Oh now rasa nk muntah pulak. Haizz.. Saya cuba bgn tp rasanya tak terdaya sgt3. Ntah mcmna saya terfikir nk call housemate kt blk bwh. Dgn tgn kanan, saya capai hp & call the housemate. Luckily she answered. I told her tht Im sick. Itu je. She rushed upstairs to my room. As she's quiet big size person, I can hear her foot steps running over the stairs. Tiba2 rasa nk muntah yg x blh ditahan2 lg dah. I cant think more so I just threw out there exactly on my bed! Muntah yg super dahsyat as the quantity kalaulah i blh measure brp kilos yg keluar, mungkin almost like everythg I ate for the last 2-3days. And the worst part was tht semua tu keluar dr mulut & hidung saya! Sorry part ni mcm disgusting. Right at ths time, my housemate has entered my room and all I can hear from her was, "ya Allah!!". My eyes were closed, my heart starts to beat slow and slow and slow.
Baru cerita 4 & 5 Oktober dh berjela mcmni. Huu. What happened lps tu, tggu next entry k. Saya nk pi mndi. Bai :)
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